I have teased my beloved Santino all night. Now he gets to teas and please me. I am allowing him to be my master. I'm his sex slave. Or Bloodlust slave. Right now he is asleep. I wore him out. We've been exchanging blood alot here lately. Yesterday he took alot of blood from me and tonight...I kinda got the guts up to drink from an innocent mortal. But I didn't kill her. Santino took the rest of her life.

It was a stupid mistake that I had to learn from. I have thought about somehow getting some money up to buy Santino a blood velvet and black velvet colored Cloak. I figured that he would like it. He had never been loved before and I know I hadn't but this was something I had a feeling he would like. I just hope he will like the idea.

Okay I know its been quite awhile since I wrote in this thing. I've been with Santino for awhile now and I'm not quite that innocent anymore. I actually showed my bad side a little. I've been wanting to do something. What I've seen Santino do. I want to drink from an innocent to see what the difference in the innocent and evil blood is. I'm sure if he catches wind of this that he will be upset with me.

Oh well.

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Just one look into your eyes
One look and I'm crying
'Cause you're so beautiful

Just one kiss and I'm alive
One kiss and I'm ready to die
'Cause you're so beautiful

Just one touch and I'm on fire
One touch and I'm crying
'Cause you're so beautiful

Just one smile and I'm wild
One smile and I'm ready to die
'Cause you're so beautiful

Oh and you're so beautiful
My darling
Oh you're so beautiful
You're so beautiful
Oh my baby
You're so beautiful
And you're so beautiful
Oh my darling
Oh my baby
And you're so beautiful

The kiss sweetest
And touch so warm
The smile kindest
In this world so cold and strong

So close to the flame
Burning brightly
It won't fade away
And leave us lonely

The arms safest
And words all good
The faith deepest
In this world so cold and cruel

So close to the flame
Burning brightly
It won't fade away
And leave us lonely

Ah things are working out wonderfuly so far. Santino took me shopping to get me new clothes and he is letting me stay with him. I love him. I honestly can say for the first time in my life that I love him.

He is my world. My air I breathe, and the life that sustains me in many ways. I now have a reason to smile. Before I could hardly smile. I was lonely and that was a terrible thing. I will be under his wing. He is going to teach me all that I need to know about my immortal life.

He definately told me that I shouldn't be going so long without feeding because if I continue to do that, then it might spiral out of control one day and I could get myself into some major trobule.

I don't mind being taught the things I should and shouldn't do. I blame all this on my maker. He's the one that left me to die. But I'm glad that I did find Santino. He's my world as I have said.

Can't wait to see him in some of his new outfits...

And on that note I will leave you with that.

I met him. Yes. Actually more like I ran into him. We both shot off at the mouth at each other and now we both apologized and he's helping me. He's really not that bad. I just think that blood and gold made Santino out to be worse than what he really is.

He's gentle so far.

Confession: I think I am starting to really like him...

I moved here to New Orleans about a month ago and I'm just now finally settling in. I haven't had much time to search the place over. I just know that I'm not allowed to feed in this area. There is a vampire named Lestat that is very territorial. I go to Baton Rouge to feed. So I don't have to worry about him getting onto me about feeding in New Orleans.

This is my first journal entry. I sit here in my little home office in front of my computer trying to figure out what to put in this silly little thing. I'm pretty smart for my age. I'm 120 years old but to the mortal eye I'm only 19 years old. I came here from Scotland. My long time land for about a century and then I wandered around for the rest of the time. Never really settling in.

I came here to New Orleans for a change. I wanted to meet up with others in the immortal family. How I managed to survive the firey death of Akasha I'll never know. But I'm just glad its all over.

My maker created me and left me to die that same very night. I search for him yes, but no longer. I've learned to just go on with life and accept everything it has to offer.

I am young and still willing to learn. There are many things I don't know about yet as in way of my strengths. I have read all of the "Anne Rice" books. They intrigue me. I could never submit my biography to an author to be written. Nothing interesting ever really happened to me. So why bother?

There is one that I do long to meet. I think if I recall correctly, his name is Santino. He has me curious. And I don't know why.

Well that is all for now. I must go feed as I am still quite too young to really avoid a feeding.

Tata